i couldn't sleep again i feel like i'm awake more than not at this point but i sat in the yard and watched the sun rise
but it's still not i dunno distracting enough keep thinking about all the people i lost rin, anya, and ryoji i guess rin's here but he feels like a ghost now
more than before you see it too, right?
maybe i need a new hobby think you'd wanna teach me how to play?
Rin lost access to the app. He doesn't remember anything. He's just like everyone else now. Chiyo is really hurting and I can't fix it. He's my cousin and I always thought the three of us were in this together, but now he's gone. Just like that. He's here, but he's totally gone.
I'm sorry. I haven't had to deal with this yet, but I think it must be worse because he's your cousin. He's family. I don't know if there's anything I can do to help, but let me know.
It's awful, but it's nothing in comparison to how Chiyo must feel. I don't know what to do for her. I don't know how to help or even make it a little better. First her best friend and then her brother and—
( sigh and a frustrated noise as he starts to tear up. )
I can't, Shouto. There's nothing I can do to guarantee that. Just like Rin, I could one day completely lose access and forget.
I'll always be there for her and I'll always do what I can for her, but it doesn't feel like enough. Not even close. Especially if I do end up like Rin.
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9/4 | text | 6am
i couldn't sleep again
i feel like i'm awake more than not at this point
but i sat in the yard
and watched the sun rise
but it's still not
i dunno
distracting enough
keep thinking about all the people i lost
rin, anya, and ryoji
i guess rin's here
but he feels like a ghost now
more than before
you see it too, right?
maybe i need a new hobby
think you'd wanna teach me how to play?
8 am
Do you want to meet up?
What happened to Rin and Anya?
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sorry!!!
i didn't mean to send this to you
ignore it?
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If you need somebody to talk to, I'm here for you.
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( lame... excuse... )
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I wouldn't tell you that if I wasn't comfortable being somebody you could lean on.
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Yukine.
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( a little awkwardly. )
I'm sorry.
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( a breath. )
Rin lost access to the app. He doesn't remember anything. He's just like everyone else now. Chiyo is really hurting and I can't fix it. He's my cousin and I always thought the three of us were in this together, but now he's gone. Just like that. He's here, but he's totally gone.
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I'm sorry. I haven't had to deal with this yet, but I think it must be worse because he's your cousin. He's family. I don't know if there's anything I can do to help, but let me know.
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( sigh and a frustrated noise as he starts to tear up. )
I can't protect her from this.
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It's commendable to want to protect her. ... Just... be there for her. I think that's a good start. Be there and make sure you're still here.
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I'll always be there for her and I'll always do what I can for her, but it doesn't feel like enough. Not even close. Especially if I do end up like Rin.
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I appreciate it.